|  | 1 | Introduction Kerim Borovina |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 2 | Birth, family and childhoofd in Foča, Jugoslavia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 2.1 | Memories of childhood in Foča |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 2.2 | Occupation of the parents |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 2.3 | Living with the grandmother |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 2.4 | The village where father was born |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 2.5 | Illnesses and allergies during childhood |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 2.6 | The games |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 2.7 | Siblings |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 2.8 | Education of the parents |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 3 | Political atmosphere in Jugoslavia before the war |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 3.1 | Marginalisation of religious minorities |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 3.2 | Role of religion in Jugoslovia during Tito's reign |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 3.3 | Religion as identity |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 3.4 | Neo-traditionalism, resistance of marginalised groups |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 3.5 | Bosnian culture in the 80ies and pluralism |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 3.6 | Interreligiosity |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 4 | The War |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 4.1 | Living in Foča and the Bosnian War |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 4.2 | Experience of war for bosniak people |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 4.3 | Quitting school |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 4.4 | Living in the basement |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 5 | Escape |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.1 | Escape with panic |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.2 | Staying in father's village with family and relatives |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.3 | Take-over of the city by militants |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.4 | Referendum about independent Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.5 | Leaving the village |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.6 | Two parallel escape-stories |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  |  | 5.6.1 | Escape of grandmother during the Second World War |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  |  | 5.6.2 | Muslim massacre |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  |  | 5.6.3 | Grandmother's trauma |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  |  | 5.6.4 | Escape without goodbye |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  |  | 5.6.5 | Repeating the experience of escape of the grandmother |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  |  | 5.6.6 | Grandmother in a refugee camp during Second World War |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  |  | 5.6.7 | Grandfather as a partisan during Second World War |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  |  | 5.6.8 | Meeting the grandparents in Croatia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.7 | Trip to Sarajevo |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.8 | Road closure and interviews by paramilitary |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.9 | Uncertainty of situation in 1990 and the beginning of war |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.10 | On the bus to Sarajevo |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.11 | Execution of elites |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.12 | Concentration camp in Foča |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.13 | Systemic rape of women |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.14 | Coup |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 5.15 | Blockade and check-points |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 6 | Sarajevo |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 6.1 | Social atmosphere during the war |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 6.2 | Living in the basement from a child's perspective |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 6.3 | Escape-programs for women and kids |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 7 | Croatia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 7.1 | On the way to Croatia without the father |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 7.2 | Fear of being divided |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 7.3 | Bosnian school for escaped kids |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 7.4 | Flight to Prague |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 8 | Czechoslovakia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 8.1 | Livin in camps in Czechoslovakia and disappointement |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 8.2 | Decision to move to Berlin |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 9 | Germany, Berlin |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 9.1 | Arrival in Berlin |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 9.2 | Living in a refugee home |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 9.3 | Difficulties and pleasures at school |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 9.4 | Learning German |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 9.5 | Mother teaches refugee kids |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 9.6 | Move to another refugee home |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 9.7 | Living in a secluded home and moving again |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 10 | End of war |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 10.1 | Political atmosphere in the Balkans 1994 |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 10.2 | Father leaves Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 10.3 | Video recordings of daily life |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 11 | Fathers visit at the refugee home and the feeling of alienation |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 12 | Move to one's own flat |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 13 | Welfare and civil life |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 14 | Return to Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.1 | Imagination of returning to Sarajevo |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.2 | Mother's voluntary job offer at IOM in Sarajevo |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.3 | Return of refugees to Bosnia and war traumas |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.4 | Constitution of Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.5 | Ideological war in the Balkans till today |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.6 | The mother's wish of a family reunification |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.7 | Dissatisfaction of the mothers with life in Germany |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.8 | Feeling of belonging in Germany and feeling of exile in Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.9 | Graduation |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.10 | Getting a flat in Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.11 | Sister against return to Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.12 | At the airport |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 14.13 | Quitting school |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 15 | Disappointement about Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.1 | Decision to return to Berlin |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.2 | Disappointments about life in Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.3 | Hopelessness for the future of post-war Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.4 | Studying in Bosnia |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.5 | Systematic corruption and the mob |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.6 | Rejection by the system |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.7 | Disillusionment and personal crisis |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.8 | Sleeping disorders and depression |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.9 | In Limbo, working for NGOs and self-employed |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.10 | Working for UNICEF |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.11 | Corruption in the NGO sector and losing the job |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 15.12 | Childhood-influence in Berlin |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 16 | Berlin |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 16.1 | Problems when comparing study programs |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 16.2 | Studying cultural studies in Frankfurt/Oder |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 16.3 | Berlin back then and today |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 16.4 | Tempo of life in Berlin |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 16.5 | Sister's move to Berlin, visiting a grammar school |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 16.6 | Move to Berlin as an emancipatory act despite immigration trauma |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  |  | 16.7 | Feeling of belonging in Berlin |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 17 | Self-concept and identity: construction of society |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 18 | Familiar faces from Sarajevo in Berlin |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 19 | Accent |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 20 | Flashbacks and chain of memory |  | 
 
																	
							
							|  | 21 | Final words |  |