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Introduction Kerim Borovina
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Birth, family and childhoofd in Foča, Jugoslavia
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2.1
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Memories of childhood in Foča
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2.2
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Occupation of the parents
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2.3
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Living with the grandmother
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2.4
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The village where father was born
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2.5
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Illnesses and allergies during childhood
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2.6
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The games
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2.7
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Siblings
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2.8
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Education of the parents
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Political atmosphere in Jugoslavia before the war
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3.1
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Marginalisation of religious minorities
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3.2
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Role of religion in Jugoslovia during Tito's reign
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3.3
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Religion as identity
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3.4
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Neo-traditionalism, resistance of marginalised groups
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3.5
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Bosnian culture in the 80ies and pluralism
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3.6
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Interreligiosity
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The War
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4.1
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Living in Foča and the Bosnian War
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4.2
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Experience of war for bosniak people
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4.3
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Quitting school
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4.4
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Living in the basement
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Escape
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5.1
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Escape with panic
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5.2
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Staying in father's village with family and relatives
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5.3
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Take-over of the city by militants
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5.4
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Referendum about independent Bosnia
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5.5
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Leaving the village
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5.6
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Two parallel escape-stories
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5.6.1
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Escape of grandmother during the Second World War
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5.6.2
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Muslim massacre
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5.6.3
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Grandmother's trauma
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5.6.4
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Escape without goodbye
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5.6.5
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Repeating the experience of escape of the grandmother
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5.6.6
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Grandmother in a refugee camp during Second World War
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5.6.7
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Grandfather as a partisan during Second World War
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5.6.8
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Meeting the grandparents in Croatia
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5.7
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Trip to Sarajevo
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5.8
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Road closure and interviews by paramilitary
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5.9
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Uncertainty of situation in 1990 and the beginning of war
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5.10
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On the bus to Sarajevo
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5.11
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Execution of elites
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5.12
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Concentration camp in Foča
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5.13
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Systemic rape of women
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5.14
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Coup
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5.15
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Blockade and check-points
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Sarajevo
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6.1
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Social atmosphere during the war
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6.2
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Living in the basement from a child's perspective
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6.3
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Escape-programs for women and kids
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Croatia
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7.1
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On the way to Croatia without the father
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7.2
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Fear of being divided
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7.3
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Bosnian school for escaped kids
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7.4
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Flight to Prague
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Czechoslovakia
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8.1
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Livin in camps in Czechoslovakia and disappointement
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8.2
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Decision to move to Berlin
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Germany, Berlin
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9.1
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Arrival in Berlin
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9.2
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Living in a refugee home
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9.3
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Difficulties and pleasures at school
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9.4
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Learning German
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9.5
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Mother teaches refugee kids
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9.6
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Move to another refugee home
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9.7
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Living in a secluded home and moving again
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End of war
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10.1
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Political atmosphere in the Balkans 1994
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10.2
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Father leaves Bosnia
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10.3
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Video recordings of daily life
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Fathers visit at the refugee home and the feeling of alienation
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Move to one's own flat
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Welfare and civil life
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Return to Bosnia
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14.1
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Imagination of returning to Sarajevo
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14.2
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Mother's voluntary job offer at IOM in Sarajevo
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14.3
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Return of refugees to Bosnia and war traumas
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14.4
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Constitution of Bosnia
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14.5
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Ideological war in the Balkans till today
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14.6
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The mother's wish of a family reunification
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14.7
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Dissatisfaction of the mothers with life in Germany
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14.8
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Feeling of belonging in Germany and feeling of exile in Bosnia
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14.9
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Graduation
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14.10
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Getting a flat in Bosnia
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14.11
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Sister against return to Bosnia
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14.12
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At the airport
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14.13
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Quitting school
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Disappointement about Bosnia
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15.1
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Decision to return to Berlin
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15.2
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Disappointments about life in Bosnia
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15.3
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Hopelessness for the future of post-war Bosnia
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15.4
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Studying in Bosnia
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15.5
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Systematic corruption and the mob
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15.6
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Rejection by the system
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15.7
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Disillusionment and personal crisis
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15.8
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Sleeping disorders and depression
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15.9
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In Limbo, working for NGOs and self-employed
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15.10
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Working for UNICEF
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15.11
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Corruption in the NGO sector and losing the job
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15.12
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Childhood-influence in Berlin
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Berlin
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16.1
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Problems when comparing study programs
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16.2
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Studying cultural studies in Frankfurt/Oder
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16.3
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Berlin back then and today
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16.4
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Tempo of life in Berlin
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16.5
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Sister's move to Berlin, visiting a grammar school
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16.6
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Move to Berlin as an emancipatory act despite immigration trauma
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16.7
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Feeling of belonging in Berlin
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Self-concept and identity: construction of society
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Familiar faces from Sarajevo in Berlin
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Accent
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Flashbacks and chain of memory
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Final words
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