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									Introduction Kava Spartak
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									Family and childhood in Afghanistan
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									2.1
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									Language at home
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									2.2
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									Family and household
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									2.3
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									Occupation of the parents
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									2.4
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									Scenic expression of Kabul in the 80ies
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									2.5
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									Afghanistan compared to other countries
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									2.6
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									Role of religion and politics in the family
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									2.7
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									Experience of violence as a child
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									2.8
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									Political atmosphere and uncertainty
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									2.9.1
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									Experience of escaping as a child
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									2.9.2
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									Motifs of escaping
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									2.9.3
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									Preparation for escaping and economical circumstances
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									2.9.4
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									Memories of Kabul
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									3
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									Escape
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									3.1
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									Through Jugoslavia to Germany
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									3.2
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									The route
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									3.3
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									Feeling of farewell
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									Germany
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									4.1
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									Arrival in Cologne
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									4.2
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									Psychological pressure of the trip
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									4.3
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									Emotional impression at the arrival, fears and hopes
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									East-Germany after reunification
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									A new home
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									4.6.1
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									Asylum application
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									At the asylum home
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									Atmosphere at the asylum home
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									German language
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									Creating friendships
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									Discrimination and racism
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									7.1
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									Rejection
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									Retreat from society
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									7.3
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									Role of language between parents and children
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									7.4
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									Fear of insult and exclusion
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									Feeling of home
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									Recognition by parents
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									Daily life and systematic racism
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									Studies
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									Graduation (Abitur) in Göttingen
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									Studying computer science in Bonn
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									Atmosphere after 9/11
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									9.1
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									Traveling to Afghanistan as a Bundeswehr soldier
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									Relation to Afghanistan before 9/11
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									German identity
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									Afghanistan
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									10.1
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									Working as a translator
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									Positive experiences, afghan civilians at the camp
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									Widening of Afghanistans image
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									Conflicts at work
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									Identity, Belonging and work ethics
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									Conflicts with afghan population
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									Role as a soldier
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									10.8
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									Moving to Badakhshan
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									Departure to Germany and goodbye
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									Further education as a linguist in Cologne
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									Semester abroad in London and experience of diversity
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									Change of the situation in Afghanistan
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									Back in Germany
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									Feeling of home
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									After 2015
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									Change of image of foreigners and projections after 2015
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									Racism in recent years
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									Afghan-german relationship
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									Deportation from Germany to Afghanistan
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									Germanys political interest in Afghanistan
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									Germanys politics towards afghan refugees
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									Violence: cultural problem or global problem
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									Integration through therapie and education
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									Feeling of safety and political commitment
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